Last night I slept for a few hours and when I woke up I wish I hadn’t gone to bed. In my nightmare, I was being beaten, battered by one of the people I love most in the world. The possibilty of something like that happening is non-existent so in my nightmare I knew I was just dreaming. But it didn’t make it any better. I cried and screamed and then I woke up to start my new day with fear in my heart.
As I sipped my morning coffee, I wished the rain would go away so I could see the sun, see the pretty blue sky. The rain had other ideas. It decided to stay for hours. I didn’t mind so much though, because my fear faded and I knew that no matter how bad anything got, everything would always, always be alright.
At this very moment, I (like most of you) can think of 10,000 reasons to be unhappy. I can think of 10,000 more reasons to scream and bang my head against a wall. I can just sit back and let my rationality escape me. But remember, we always have a choice. So I am choosing instead, to think of 10,000 reasons to be happy and to think of 10,000 more reasons why I should smile and look forward to the future.
I was told about this place called Alaska. I was told that I can find my soulmate there. I was told that this place called Alaska can erase every feeling of unease that has ever darkened my heart. I’m moving to Alaska! It doesn’t matter if I’ll freeze my ass off or if I won’t have easy access to chicken curry or a black water creek.
Besides, why should I stay here? When was the last time you took a walk along Regent Street? I feel as if India and China are about to declare war against each other in order to fight over us. I feel as if we’re about to take a plunge into colonisation once again.
Alaska, Alaska, Alaska. Everytime I close my eyes, I can just see these fleeting images of peace you promise me. I can almost feel the crisp, cold air against my skin and I find myself longing for you and your joys. Oh Alaska, already I can feel you filling my heart and making me whole.
So what do you say? Are you coming to Alaska too?